Lots going on here in Ohio since my last post….what seems like a year ago. My new website is still sitting in a corner staring at me, I applied to Naropa for the Master of Divinity program and am waiting to hear from them, Doug has been in and out of the hospital with a life-threatening staph infection and cellulitis (VERY SCARY), The Brahma Kumaris came from New York to turn my world upside down, make me long for India, reminding me to meditate and left like a cloud in the breeze, Stephanie has two new fillies in Longmont (can’t wait to go pet them!), went to Everett and picked up my car from the wonderful Kristen, had a GREAT meeting with Shoshanna in Denver, attended my first drumming circle in Montrose, Ohio (holy crap cool), got CPR/ADF and first aid certified, have started to read The Bible, my money has officially run out AND I can’t wait to get back to Colorado in the next 7 days.

Over to the right you will see that I finally posted my reading list from India. It’s a doooooozie.

Okay, I know some of you are probably wondering what the heck is going on with me…..I started meditating again. I know, I know, I never should have STOPPED but I DID and I paid for it. Dearly. SO I started meditating again a couple weeks ago and that is my big lesson on why it’s good to make the effort to be present. When you’re not present in your everyday life, you flounder and do dumb things. I have also been making a concerted effort at changing some of my behavioral patterns and auto-responses so that’s been quite a roller coaster as well. Doing self work is rewarding yet, exhausting and Doug said he has watched the process and it’s definitely a self-induced place of crazy that only I can get myself out of.

I haven’t found a place to do the photo exhibits here in Ohio and I’m guessing that’s because I wasn’t going to stay here long! You just never know! I surely would have known had I been meditating and staying present (as I stick my tongue out at myself and use my snottie voice) I also had this crazy urge to clean all of my junk out of my parents basement 2 days ago. I threw away a LOT of junk and it was cathartic. I had a great time reminiscing while going through boxes of stuff from when I was married some 6 years ago. 6 years ago? Wow.

My mom and dad’s puppy, Zoe, is almost 6 months old and weighs 17 lbs! She’s a solid black mini-schnauzer and she’s ADORABLE and is surely daddy’s girl. She gets spayed next week (poor thing). She’s gonna be HUGE when she’s full grown. More of a standard than a mini if you ask me. I tried my hand at working on computers again and HATED it more than anything I’ve ever done in my life. I passed the task onto my parent’s neighbor-kid Brian as he’s a little computer wiz in his second year at Akron University and even writes his own computer newspaper column in the Medina Gazette. Thank GOD he’s around to take over working with dad’s computer, I was so done with that. I would rather empty bedpans at a hospital than fix computers of a living ever again.

SOOOOO, that leaves my exit from the state. My tax return check should be here any day now and that will allow me to get BACK IN THE CAR (WONDERFUL as it is) and drive BACK to Colorado. I LOVE Colorado. My buddy Steve has graciously offered up his spare bedroom, in his HUGE Longmont house, while I get myself set up. All I have to do is get a job and a place to live and get to Everett to get the kitties all in anticipation of school starting this fall! YAY! Orientation is the second week of August or there abouts so I just need to find something that I can do full time for summer and back it down to like 75% time and switch to evenings when school starts. I am more than willing to get extra student loans to cover my butt the first semester to have some cushion as far as figuring out job and money. It’ll be tough but it’ll be worth it. I just know I’m going to get in to Naropa so I might as well embrace the poverty! I just want my kitties back!

Seeing the kitties for a few days in Everett was wonderful. Witnessing how all of the animals interact in the house was fun to watch as well. Keiko held a bit of a grudge initially but when she saw Sam getting all kinds of attention she realized that pride wasn’t worth not getting love from her mommy. I told them I’d be back to get them before August so I gotta get my act together!

The big project that I have staring at me is getting to Dove Creek and picking up my stuff from my cousins’ farm. I am trying to figure out how to get out there and stay a bit. AND have a job AND find a place AND get the kitties AND get my life together. I’m sure it’ll all work out but one thing I was counting on SO much to be able to do is to go to Dove Creek and BE for a while. I miss Linda and David like no other and I really want them back in my life full time but it’s hard to do with life and all of it’s unexpected twists and turns. I officially have nobody in my life full time.

I’m also looking forward to being in the Boulder area so I can get some help bringing Rinzin over to go to college. BAH! I need some more things on my plate, doncha think? Good lord.

So that’s it for now. Everything and Nothingness. The ‘Everything’ is all of the drama and whatnot the material world drops in our lap. The ‘Nothingness’ is my reminder to meditate and keep opening that still space in myself so that being present is a possibility.

I’m back.

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